Maybe

Do you ever had that feeling about giving up on something you worked hard for because of the reason MAYBE you won’t be able to finish it as planned? That time that makes you want to start over and just abandon your past work because of that MAYBE word on your mind.

Well that sucks! I have this suicidal moment that actually makes me laugh when I think about it. I was just to finish an art work that I worked dearly for 1 whole week and when I was to finish it I saw a small error on detail and just turned it down and think for a second.  I’ll just tell my story for you folks.

It was just last month (November) when I have this crazy idea to draw a house. I just thought when I was a kid I always saw my classmates drawing different kinds of houses, house that has triangles on the top and squares on the bottom and something like that and some are making mansions which is compose of  single rectangle on the bottom and a trapezoid on the top. Well I was just thinking if I could just sketch a house just like in my childhood but this time it’s an art and not a laughing stack back in my childhood. I’ll do it in a week I said, I’ll do it without the help of the internet for tips on how to sketch a house I said. I went out of the house and start to memorize out house. (I can’t describe my house in here) So after a few hours of staring at my house like an idiot outside, I then pictured it well in my brain and surely ready to sketch it. Then that’s the first day, I memorized then put some guide lines grid for example. Then, the next day started on the roof and took me a day to make it A ROOF. Then, the third day the edges of the house the doors the windows and the pipes. The fourth day I mastered the details of the windows, doors and the pipes and made it to be a lot like the real ones. The fifth day I put on some of the details and get really careful. “Every inch if the edge must be perfect” that’s what I’m thinking. Then, it happened. When I was on the center of concentration I clumsily put and emphasis to the light part of the house with a 6h pencil meaning it will be stuck in there and be so obvious. Just like looking at it you’ll see a dark straight line in the middle of the unfinished house. That’s where I started to think that MAYBE I’ll just start over, MAYBE I’ll just retrace all those work, MAYBE if I try to erase it, it may look more obvious. Then I sat on the couch and think deep. All those hard work will be thrown because of a simple error. I was really tired that day and I fell asleep. After waking up I decided to throw it away and my cousin stopped me WHY?? Because he told me that it looks SUPER AWESOME! And turned out that it was just me who exaggerated about a line. I tried to erase it and *boom* the straight line was just a memory and I finished my freaking house!!

MAYBE you can relate to my experience and share some of your to me ;)